There’s a particular kind of lonely that comes from being wanted in private and denied in public. I loved a man who was married — a man who told me, more than once, that he wanted to be with me.
And I believed him. I let myself feel chosen instead of second. I planned my heart around a promise he never planned to keep — because he never planned to confess it, to say it out loud anywhere it would have cost him something. He wanted me where no one could see. He never wanted me where it counted.
“Never Mine to Keep” is that whole season said honestly. I wasn’t holding onto something that was mine. I was holding onto a maybe — and this song is me finally letting it go.
Where have you let yourself be wanted in private and denied in public? What would it take to only hold onto a love that would claim you out loud?
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